Today we met with Deb "The Debinator" Loewen. Our conversation explored her journey through motherhood and her 15 years of battling 3 separate rounds of cancer. Through the discussion we learn why her two favorite mantra's ("Just Today" & "Not Your Story") are powerful, and how they can apply to you. Highlights include: - How holding onto a good thing can spoil it. - When "Vision Casting", start with you. - The journey through parenthood. - The journey through not 1, not 2, but 3 forms of cancer. - Continuing to live fully, despite tragedy. - Declaring, "I Will Not Die!" - Communicating through the challenge. - Living for more than yourself. - Embodying death. Engaging those in tragedy - How normalcy can be medicinal. - No escape from reality, it must be faced. - Refusing to give into fear. - Be careful what you choose to accept about yourself. - Finding resolve when exhausted, tired & fatigued. - Just be there. - Choose carefully when to freak out. - Do something good. Did you find value in today’s conversation? SHARE IT!

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09;47;48;05 - 09;47;36;17

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Very comfortable with this house, a DFAT post not going to go into the details of how it happened. I did the analysis after it to figure out what I did wrong. Bottom line I took the key post driver on the third hit.

09;47;36;10 - 09;47;20;26

Jon, Aaron & Deb

It caught the top of the post. I've trained myself loads going everywhere. Definitely a precaution. So I I remember a little bit you went down like this. I didn't stay down there. You didn't know you got to the absolute best to this point.

09;47;20;20 - 09;47;05;07

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Yeah. Yeah, proud. You can see right or wrong. He continued the rest of the day because that was the first post. Wow. My grandfather died on my foot of fencing. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And we and we joked about, you know, we all have that friend.

09;47;05;03 - 09;46;52;14

Jon, Aaron & Deb

We we regret asking to do a job because they're just John going to be that guy who's a liability. Is this overzealous before I redeem myself the next 800 seat?

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But but but.

09;46;50;11 - 09;46;38;03

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It's funny because it's like what? That literally was a blow to the head. You had to get back in, you know? Yeah. And sometimes it's physical ones zero, some ibuprofen and bleeding that I was like.

09;46;36;24 - 09;46;36;15

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Yeah.

09;46;34;28 - 09;46;19;03

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Yeah, wow. You're lucky to get the song down. And he gave me a shirt. Like for the next three hours, I had to keep wiping away tears. But and that's kind of a fun aside. But it comes directly back to like when you get famous people or whether it's him and had fun off a horse or more

09;46;19;03 - 09;46;03;20

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systemically, your identity is being questioned, you read. This is a when you're feeling something out of a job, regardless of its key posts, because I was my pride stung. I was a bear and I was like, I'm not the one time he's asked me to help him with the project and to say.

09;46;03;15 - 09;46;02;20

Jon, Aaron & Deb

You know, yes.

09;46;02;18 - 09;45;43;22

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So it's like, that's a micro example of what you're walking through. And I actually remember having conversations around when that season. It's so cool. It's like. That's part of your transition to going into that type of job and going to that, there's going to be gross pains, there's going to be transitions, you know?

09;45;43;15 - 09;45;27;02

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And I think what I want to think about a friend right now that they're going through a significant transition and it's harder now and they're adjusting, you know, they're chafing under the adjustments and it's like, that's expected. But I think that the lie is that it's just going to be on the story.

09;45;26;24 - 09;45;26;14

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Right?

09;45;25;29 - 09;45;12;08

Jon, Aaron & Deb

The truth is no, no, no. When you're starting to feel that friction and you're feeling the weight of that, you don't go back to what you came from. Pushed through to the promise of what can be in this new chapter, you know, and that's so beautiful.

09;45;12;08 - 09;45;00;25

Jon, Aaron & Deb

And I think that it's and it's exactly what happened there, right? You guys had your your talk and you were able to push through and now you're the right hand person for the company, right? You guys are crushing it.

09;45;00;25 - 09;44;50;08

Jon, Aaron & Deb

You gain the competency, you have the skill set. You're happy with what you do, right? It's funny because I've done a lot of work with Jeff, who happens to be the father in law, and we built a very large barn together.

09;44;49;29 - 09;44;41;01

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He's not a man. You want to mess up, you know, he cares, and he's very compassionate and very astute. So it's like, my mistake is unforgivable.

09;44;39;27 - 09;44;39;02

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I'm sorry, but.

09;44;39;02 - 09;44;36;10

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Now I'm fixing it. And just good luck.

09;44;35;19 - 09;44;34;14

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Yeah, you of the worst.

09;44;34;14 - 09;44;12;12

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Human beings I have facing the bad guys. Yet, whether you're putting or you find finding a pleasure telling us, like, we can do this and it's just like, you don't you just do it. But I love you what that type of personality calls out and you because you're either going to be a loser and just buckle.

09;44;11;20 - 09;43;58;14

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And I think every human question should have a corner. And that's another viewpoint. We're going to rise to the challenge, and I see the same spark in you. And that's why it's fine. It's like, I'll never forget, I am pushed back on something.

09;43;58;13 - 09;43;40;28

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Apparently, we were having a conversation and just like off the cuff of it, no, I disagree. Because of this, it had just come back. Well, John, you were wrong. And this is why. And I just sat there and I was a little angry, but I was able to realize that's my pride.

09;43;40;28 - 09;43;23;28

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That's angry because she's clearly right, as she has outlined in painful detail. So I just look, I can see that you're correct and I retract my statement and then I wouldn't call that resignation right now. No point in fighting it because I know I'm wrong invested here.

09;43;23;07 - 09;43;16;19

Jon, Aaron & Deb

You have a long history of addressing negative or incorrect information. Right? You know.

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Jon, Aaron & Deb

Thank.

09;43;16;09 - 09;43;04;25

Jon, Aaron & Deb

You. And and you you learn how to look at it. And yeah, and even and even like you and your story, it's it's like I was ready to quit. I mean, I was ready to do the wrong thing.

09;43;03;10 - 09;42;50;01

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Right? I mean, that's real, you know, because I absolutely I was really it was. I mean. Oh yeah, I slept on it a couple of days and and you allow yourself to come around to, Hey, what's Liz? What's the next step next?

09;42;50;00 - 09;42;43;03

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Real quick cookies. There are two things that I think are really important one the importance of taking a pause before making emotional decision.

09;42;43;02 - 09;42;42;06

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Yet right.

09;42;41;24 - 09;42;28;25

Jon, Aaron & Deb

At first. Oh man, I hate that you mentioned on Friday and thinking it through the weekend. But then I was like, Yeah, that made it uncomfortable. But how good was that? Because you were able to process it for two days, which absolutely it wasn't meant to be comfortable.

09;42;28;11 - 09;42;24;08

Jon, Aaron & Deb

It was meant to invoke that discomfort that you had to come to a conclusion.

09;42;24;02 - 09;42;23;18

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Yes.

09;42;23;18 - 09;42;05;10

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And then the second thing is, you just mentioned, you know, you almost made the wrong choice. And I think that's true, right? Like, you would have been the wrong choice. But when when we're in the moment of processing for these life decisions, it's not clear which choice is right and which ones wrong.

09;42;05;01 - 09;41;52;26

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Yes, I would agree because even in that moment, the only thing that I kept thinking of was not so much me as much as OK, but it's about the team. It's about, I want you to be successful.

09;41;52;26 - 09;41;51;10

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And if I'm not the best person.

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For you to be successful.

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At what you're doing.

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And where you're going, then.

09;41;47;19 - 09;41;44;29

Jon, Aaron & Deb

I need to battle out. And I know, right?

09;41;44;28 - 09;41;43;13

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Yeah. So it wasn't even like, you.

09;41;43;13 - 09;41;42;14

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Know, oh.

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For me, it was like, Oh my goodness, I am not the.

09;41;40;00 - 09;41;36;11

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Right person for this job. So, yeah, and to me.

09;41;36;11 - 09;41;31;10

Jon, Aaron & Deb

That would have been clear. It's like, great if you are the right person, not my skillset, you should find somebody else.

09;41;31;07 - 09;41;30;25

Jon, Aaron & Deb

I'll go.

09;41;30;24 - 09;41;24;13

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Out. I'll find something else. And yet in that process, there is still that. OK, but what about you?

09;41;23;15 - 09;41;14;17

Jon, Aaron & Deb

That is that's the thing, because when we get ourselves out of the situation, it's going to be whether we're going to create a narrative that we can believe. Right?

09;41;14;09 - 09;41;13;20

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Yes.

09;41;13;11 - 09;41;01;29

Jon, Aaron & Deb

So you realize that this is the narrative that I'm getting. And then you can and you can get rid of the discomfort pretty quick by just saying, OK, I made a decision. I think I we all want to do that.

09;41;01;29 - 09;40;51;29

Jon, Aaron & Deb

We all want to figure out what the solution is right away, so we don't have to wrestle with it. But you chose to be like, Is that the right? I mean, is that the conclusion I should come to right?

09;40;51;25 - 09;40;40;16

Jon, Aaron & Deb

And there was even a higher ideal that was even better than that negative that you're going to see this instead, that I'm going to come, I am going to come to the end of myself, but I'm not. I'm not going to let it take me over, right?

09;40;40;05 - 09;40;30;08

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Yeah. And then and now other people wait. I have had way more positive, in fact, because you made an internal decision to make yourself better and pushed through.

09;40;29;27 - 09;40;26;24

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Yes, exactly. Exactly.

09;40;25;21 - 09;40;11;02

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Yes. And I want to ask you a question about the cancers that you walk, that you kind of understand that better but better to think about. How do I bring up the question? Because what I don't want to do and this is somebody who is going to say what I don't want to do more open about it

09;40;10;22 - 09;39;51;25

Jon, Aaron & Deb

. OK, there, Wolf. What I really admire in life and appreciate about you is I don't see any trace that the fact that you have survived involves three forms of cancer. It's not your identity. You know, it's circumstances that you thought there were seasons or things.

09;39;51;25 - 09;39;35;28

Jon, Aaron & Deb

They were fun. They were terrible. But there's so many people I know who God forbid they have cancer, they've had some injury or a divorce or something, and it's like that it finds them. It's like a high school player, guys, varsity jacket who never takes the jacket off and they're like 40 years old.

09;39;35;20 - 09;39;22;20

Jon, Aaron & Deb

You grow like, I'm glad this season was what it was, right? But you know, it shouldn't. It defines the point where that is the first piece of your identity, I see. And so I really appreciate that that's not you.

09;39;22;03 - 09;38;59;18

Jon, Aaron & Deb

So in asking this question, I'm not trying to paint like, Oh, you are. Yeah. The fact that you survived these cancers. I just admire the distinction that in spite of raising four children and everything else that you experience in life, you also went through these incredibly challenging personal health issues that also have second, third and fourth order

09;38;59;18 - 09;38;42;26

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effects of family work, all these different things. So I just love to understand a little bit about what that look like, but real world like timeline and type of the things that you fight through. And then also how, if at all, you think that shaped you to who you are today?

09;38;42;12 - 09;38;34;15

Jon, Aaron & Deb

And I'm not assuming it did. I imagine it touched you in some form or fashion. You had to choose how you're going to be. The difficulty?

09;38;32;15 - 09;38;32;03

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Yeah.

09;38;31;20 - 09;38;31;02

Jon, Aaron & Deb

How's that?

09;38;30;24 - 09;38;29;26

Jon, Aaron & Deb

And that's good.

09;38;29;21 - 09;38;28;19

Jon, Aaron & Deb

That's a good question.

09;38;26;07 - 09;38;20;15

Jon, Aaron & Deb

So. 2008, I was diagnosed.

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With breast cancer and had to go through surgery, and we had eight rounds of chemo.

09;38;11;27 - 09;37;56;24

Jon, Aaron & Deb

And chemo was every three weeks. And in the process of that, I had, you know, the week that you have that I had chemo was. Pretty OK by the time we got.

09;37;56;24 - 09;37;56;00

Jon, Aaron & Deb

To the end of that week.

09;37;55;20 - 09;37;54;26

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The second week.

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I had pretty much be quarantined because I had no new interesting about whatsoever.

09;37;50;17 - 09;37;41;10

Jon, Aaron & Deb

So I had to be quarantined for the next two weeks. And by week three, I started feeling a little better. And then we.

09;37;41;10 - 09;37;40;02

Jon, Aaron & Deb

Started the process until August.

09;37;39;25 - 09;37;37;23

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So that was like my, you know.

09;37;37;14 - 09;37;35;16

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Threw me every three weeks kind of thing.

09;37;34;15 - 09;37;28;25

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Homeschooling the girls during that time. My oldest, when I literally found.

09;37;28;25 - 09;37;26;20

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Out in April.

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Of 2008, my oldest daughter.

09;37;22;26 - 09;37;21;09

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Turned 16.

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Just after I had.

09;37;19;16 - 09;37;18;20

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Had surgery.

09;37;18;01 - 09;37;15;26

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So we still celebrated.

09;37;15;25 - 09;37;12;18

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Her 16th birthday. I said, we are not going to not do this.

09;37;12;07 - 09;37;03;18

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We had already had a plan. I said, You still need to be celebrated. What is happening with me is not going to.

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Deter us from doing that.

09;37;01;07 - 09;36;57;27

Jon, Aaron & Deb

So and and even going back to.

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Jon, Aaron & Deb

When.

09;36;57;15 - 09;36;56;10

Jon, Aaron & Deb

We first had to tell.

09;36;56;10 - 09;36;46;19

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The girls, when you get the news, you know, I got the phone call. Hi, Mrs. Line. Yes, it's cancer. And you.

09;36;46;19 - 09;36;46;09

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Just kind of.

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Go, OK.

09;36;43;27 - 09;36;41;21

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And so me and my husband, we went on.

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Set all of our girls down.

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I said. So we talk with the.

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Doctor and they said his cancer.

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And look at all our faces, and everybody's just kind of like, got that look like, how do I process this? Our youngest at the.

09;36;23;18 - 09;36;22;16

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Time was eight.

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And so, you know, she wasn't really sure or actually she was seven.

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She's going to be eight later that year. And our third daughter, Olivia, she was nine.

09;36;08;27 - 09;36;06;26

Jon, Aaron & Deb

She was the one who I think voice when.

09;36;06;26 - 09;36;05;07

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Everybody wanted to say the real.

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Because she looked at me while she looked at me and she had.

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This look on her face and go.

09;36;00;07 - 09;35;48;23

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Olivia, what did you hear mommy say? And she goes, It's cancer, you're going to die. Got it. So no.

09;35;48;01 - 09;35;47;09

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Mom is not going to.

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Be.

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The mom is not going to die. Mommy's got.

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Cancer.

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Says it be a long road.

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But mommy's not going to die.

09;35;37;25 - 09;35;36;17

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Now, I said that.

09;35;34;29 - 09;35;25;07

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You know, inside, I'm like, Oh my God. They said cancer, and that is definitely a reality. And yet I just literally declared to my daughter.

09;35;24;29 - 09;35;22;16

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I'm not dying, I'm not dying.

09;35;21;22 - 09;35;19;17

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And the.

09;35;19;01 - 09;35;17;25

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eight rounds of chemo that.

09;35;17;25 - 09;35;12;29

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Literally took it from April to November of that year, so literally almost the entire year.

09;35;12;17 - 09;35;10;27

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Was chemo.

09;35;08;27 - 09;35;07;23

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There is, you know.

09;35;06;28 - 09;35;04;08

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Schools still have to happen. So there.

09;35;04;08 - 09;35;03;14

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Were weeks.

09;35;03;14 - 09;34;57;26

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That mom was like, Here's here's the stuff that I need you to get done.

09;34;57;26 - 09;34;57;06

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And mom was.

09;34;57;06 - 09;34;50;28

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Like in my and my oldest daughter. She helped a lot with the younger ones.

09;34;50;28 - 09;34;44;11

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To kind of pick up that that was a really rough year for her. And it was towards the end of that year.

09;34;43;05 - 09;34;36;20

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It was in December we had gone to my brother's cabin and my chemo was all done. So I said.

09;34;36;20 - 09;34;36;00

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So that part.

09;34;35;21 - 09;34;34;14

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Was done. Now I was on the.

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five what I call the five year plan.

09;34;32;19 - 09;34;31;25

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Where it's like, you know, I have to.

09;34;31;24 - 09;34;25;26

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Take a chemo drug every day. It's like, it's like since I was like, It's a small, this is cannabis. I can't see this for.

09;34;25;26 - 09;34;25;17

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five.

09;34;25;17 - 09;34;24;10

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Years, and I.

09;34;24;09 - 09;34;23;05

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Have to see the doctor.

09;34;23;04 - 09;34;20;07

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Still once a month and I'll send them a five year plan.

09;34;19;12 - 09;34;18;06

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And I just remember.

09;34;18;06 - 09;34;16;26

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Being in Utah, we were.

09;34;16;26 - 09;34;16;12

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All sitting.

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Around.

09;34;15;16 - 09;34;13;09

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And talking and just going.

09;34;13;09 - 09;34;10;05

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OK, so where is everybody? How's everybody doing?

09;34;09;19 - 09;34;04;07

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And it was so it was so good because literally, probably.

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The next three hours.

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We just sat there and all of the girls for.

09;33;59;16 - 09;33;57;13

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The first time were able to just talk about.

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How they.

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Processed through the last several months of.

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Seeing mom.

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Going through all of that.

09;33;50;01 - 09;33;43;13

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And just being able to have them share that was so good because they kind of like held it in. It's like like I have to be.

09;33;43;13 - 09;33;42;23

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To her mom.

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I can't let mom know that, you know, I'm hurting. I'm angry and I'm frustrated and, you know, scared to death.

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That you know what's going to happen in. They're not, are they going to this mom? I'm going to be gone and I'm not going to have a mom for the rest of my life.

09;33;28;20 - 09;33;26;04

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And this is to say no.

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Yeah.

09;33;25;09 - 09;33;20;02

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We've talked about this before when when you go through difficulty, don't don't think that you're the only one.

09;33;18;19 - 09;33;18;04

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Right?

09;33;17;24 - 09;33;02;28

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Because you're what you're going through is massive and would be easier for you to go, Hey, I'm the victim here, you guys. You know why you're going through in this discount? That right? But that went away saying, press, pause or go, Hey, how's the team doing?

09;33;02;28 - 09;33;00;22

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Yes. Are we all doing with this information?

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Yes. Yeah.

09;32;58;24 - 09;32;55;29

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Which was so hard because I mean, there would be times even.

09;32;55;29 - 09;32;55;12

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In the middle.

09;32;55;02 - 09;32;54;07

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That I would just kind.

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Of let go.

09;32;53;14 - 09;32;50;09

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How you doing? And you know, the devil will be like, I'm OK.

09;32;49;28 - 09;32;47;03

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I'm OK, and I.

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Want to.

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Know what is. I remember.

09;32;43;06 - 09;32;39;11

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When my hair all fell out and it was a.

09;32;39;11 - 09;32;37;04

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Synchro competition that weekend.

09;32;37;04 - 09;32;35;25

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And it was still my first.

09;32;35;25 - 09;32;34;02

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Round. I had just had my first round of chemo.

09;32;33;19 - 09;32;31;09

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And I thought, OK.

09;32;31;09 - 09;32;28;10

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So I hear something and I'm like, OK, was like, you know.

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Several amount, but we're OK. So we went for that weekend.

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My doctor said, Yes, you can go.

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My levels are OK.

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He's like, absolutely.

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Clorox became my favorite.

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Friend because literally, we.

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Clorox everything. I remember Lindsay sending me for my birthday that year, Lysol and Clorox wipes, and I'm like, Yes, this.

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Is the best food ever.

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And we have gone. So Jeff, taking the.

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two older girls because they were the ones competing.

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To the event, he was going to come back and get us. And so I took a shower and literally, as I'm taking a.

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Shower, my hair all falls out.

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It's like. And I the girls, the.

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two older girls said, Mom.

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I don't want you to shave your head because I was just going.

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To say, we have to go, OK, hello.

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